I don’t remember what it’s like to live life without chronic pain and fatigue or the ability to breathe through my nose. I know I have it made compared to some people. Hell, I have it made compared to my brother. But I’m still sick and I still have to look at this face every day. I refuse to give in though and just lay around all day. As much as I want to, I will always work twice as hard to reach my goals. I thank the Lord they were able to diagnose me but I just need a day of relief.
The song Sweet Victory by Trip Lee is one of those songs I can’t get through without breaking down and sobbing uncontrollably. It is so relatable to my situation and everyone else’s who is dealing with auto immune diseases, genetic diseases, organ diseases the after effects of cancer, etc. Video and lyrics below.
I feel thorns where my crown was
(I be weak but I’m alive)
From the dusk until dawn yeah
(I’ll survive ’cause I got) sweet victory
Nobody can take it from me sweet victory
‘Cause I got (sweet victory) yeah
You see me limpin’
I know you see me limpin’
You can’t tell on these CD’s but bro I’m knee deep in it
I’m waiting in my weakness he may be deep in it
I be lyin’ through my teeth to say I don’t resent it
Even as I right these lines I’m close to tears
Body ain’t be workin’ right for 7 years
So miss me with that keep your chin up try to smile
Bro I’m 26 I should feel better by a mile
Keep all your anecdotes and cute quotes
I’ll pass some clichés for true hopes it too dope
I feel thorns where my crown was
(I be weak but I’m alive)
From the dusk until dawn yeah
(I’ll survive ’cause I got) sweet victory
Nobody can take it from me sweet victory
‘Cause I got (sweet victory) yeah
Toast to the King
Cheers to the ceiling
Feeling good we gon’ make it to the finish (sweet victory)
You hear me
Holla if you feel me
Yeah we still runnin’ even though we limpin’ (sweet victory)
‘Cause we winnin’, yeah we know we winnin’
Even though we’re winnin’ we’re still in it (sweet victory)
‘Cause we winnin’, yeah we know we winnin’
Now we livin’ (sweet victory)
They see me on the stage
They like that boy the man
They hear play on them songs
They clappin’ in them stands
They like “I bet you got a lot of good stuff from other bands”
So when I say it’s been a few hard years they think I’m playin’
But you don’t know my life boy
You don’t know my life boy
You don’t know what it’s been like on my wife
Don’t know my fight boy
Being in the trenches steady tryna’ fight my foes
And when I couldn’t fight no more it brought me low, low
It brought me low I know can’t bet it low
I feel thorns where my crown was
(I be weak but I’m alive)
From the dusk until dawn yeah
(I’ll survive ’cause I got) sweet victory
Nobody can take it from me sweet victory
‘Cause I got (sweet victory) yeah
Toast to the King
Cheers to the ceiling
Feeling good we gon’ make it to the finish (sweet victory)
You hear me
Holla if you feel me
Yeah we still runnin’ even though we limpin’ (sweet victory)
‘Cause we winnin’, yeah we know we winnin’
Even though we’re winnin’ we’re still in it (sweet victory)
‘Cause we winnin’, yeah we know we winnin’
Now we livin’ (sweet victory)
They like I here you talkin’ wins but I see your losses
You celebratin’ crowns but I see your crosses
That’s the paradox that don’t fit in your Mary box
You might not understand if you walk in this pair of socks
The Victor ain’t the one that’s winnin’ seventh inning
Trophies don’t go to the ones that got a good beginning
When I say I win I don’t mean the state I’m in
I mean that day when the grace got fade out then
I’m winning ’cause I ran with Him
The crown of thorn
Declares your King
A scarlet robe can’t cloak Your majesty
They nailed Your hands
You mailed our death
From the cross You reigned
Your Kingdom knows no end
Oh, Jesus
You won it all
Oh, Jesus
Victorious
Oh, Jesus
You won it all
Oh, Jesus
Victorious
Oh, Jesus
Kaitlyn Brynae 